My Rolfer says I have too much energy tied up in my body and that I need to find a way to express it. He posits that the advanced training that I gave my muscles during the 6 year period when I was singing for 4-6 hours a day is still active and essentially being squashed back down instead of being expressed.
I'm not sure where to go with that. I do know that in my last session when he worked on my shoulders the opposite arm was involuntarily twitching and bouncing on the table as if it was getting electrical jolts.
Frodo is still hanging in there. He's a champion. We were pretty worried because he refused food for 4 days. But, he's back on the eating wagon, even though it's only a couple of spoonfuls of babyfood at a time. He's still happy to see us when we get home and even wants to play a little every now and then.
I'm supposed to reward myself for sticking to my diet for 12 weeks (and losing 10 lbs). But, I'm so tired and depressed that choosing a reward seems like some sort of ontological punishment. I want to go out...but I still feel too fat and socially akward. I want/need to buy clothes, but that seems futile while I'm losing weight so quickly plus I still feel fat. I'm getting my hair colored on the 20th, but that should just be part of my normal self-care plan.I want my dog to live and be healthy for another 40 years but no one seems to have that magic pill.